So far for me...

Ah I'm a guy who possesses a dream like most guys do, and I had great belief in the potential of my own. I like to give a try on everything but not on vices in life.
I continuously change my way of perception and thinking through my life so as to find the real meaning of my life, this one life of mine. I need to work out how far I wish to go, why do I need to strive so hard for now, and why I need friends for, and many other questions I often asked myself.

I've seen friends at the edge of breaking down, and I asked myself whether I'd become of this someday... the definite answer always came to my mind "N.O." and I believe I would not so simply as to break down over matters ---instead, I'd get even stronger, and further. I know that with my target set, I'm similar to a bull seeing a red flag, or the notorious unstoppable juggernaut.

Certainly, life is nothing but a mystery if we trace back history. I'm not going to be the GREAT one to unsolve this mystery or neither would I become of Sir Issac Newton to convince the world of its mystery such as gravity. I'm just going to be a simple fellow with unsimple thoughts. I'm greatly attracted to unexplained phenomenons or scientific phenomeons which I haven't get to know of yet.

Thus, come to my job as an engineer, I DID not choose to become of engineer, or rather I should put it in this way that engineering was bestowed to me. Don't get the wrong idea, I wasn't forced to take it either. I took it as it came. Besides scientific explanations, physics, maths and human technologies so far came a great step ahead than olden days... and an inspirative world of programming languages too, had mystified me and drive me going on.

Ah so they said about reality and dreams were too different things and some wise ones said life might turns out just to be a dream... well hard to explain unless you did watch the movie "Vanilla Sky" by Tom Cruise, everything comes clear. People see what they wanted to see, hear what they wanted to hear... so what's true might just be truth under the governing hands of the world. Since we are living beings, and had a perception capabilities I believe we should try and understand the mentalities of each other, to "empathise" others.

Right now before learning "how to save the world", I still think the fact that "how to continue living" is placed before anything. I am still pondering over what I could and should become... future, yes, that's my point! Everything in present is a moment of gold. We create our future, please watch "The Lake House" to understand what I'm talking about here. Do I lust for fame and riches or accomplishments and awards, ...or do I just need to find recognition of my existence in this lonely planet?

Before I had no more feelings for this planet..., written by
joo