Wandering soul

Never in my past did I thought this far of what I should be doing in the present.
I'm glad that I'm now given the full liberty to choose the way I want to go, I wish to do etc. It's independent day I would call it for myself.

Given freedom could posed as a problem too for some, mindless to which direction that should be taken, being too used to what we called 'spoon-fed'.
It's like having no ability to find and search for food in a jungle.

The World's a harsh, cruel yet the reality that we had to face. On the surface of the planet we can never be free from the attraction of the Sun. And there we thought getting past gravity was the key to unlock greater freedom.
Sometimes, we need to take a step back to find out where we really stand, we need to get to see the bigger picture of each situations.

Easier to be said than to be done, yet Hardly, we saw few people with such spectacular vision. They think they had it, yes, literally yes. But the truth is, they lack it. Gaining knowledge don't let you find it, neither do having natural leaderships lead you to find it, it has to come from self-conscious and a bright brain. Bright don't mean intelligent. Just like having high IQ don't mean you know how to fix a spoilt light bulb.

Everyone is given a chance to thrive from their capabilities and self developed abilities. However, it is up to our selves to capture these chances and not to let them slipped by us. The chance to prove ourselves, our vision, our abilities, our truth, and last but not least to discover our own FLAWS.

Chance does not mean the opportunity just to shine, it is the opportunity to polish ourselves. Discovering our own flaws help to recollect ourselves from the mistakes made in the past and evolved with greater heights for further future distance of our life.

There is no need to see life as a bad thing, the fact is that it always come with the good and the bad, but we have just chosen to see the part which we like to see most. Too much since the beginning of history, man had always written history to their own perspective, it is left to us to believe it or not.

Afterall, the Earth might not be round, and moon landings might never had occured, Mars could have life on it. We never know, all these while we were only exposed to 'hearing' it.

Are you a follow-er? or are you the lead-er?
Joo.

PS: I'm not one who follows. I will overtake one day and take the lead.

Fed up

He don't understand how as a friend, I'd understand him.
He don't know the purpose of communication.
He thinks the whole world blame him over a small issue.
He thinks he is right and can speak whatever he likes.
He doesn't know he hurt a friend.

Forget it,
it's a part that I know of him,
my good friend,
if you're ever reading this,
please re think over what you said.
And think of how people would think of what you've said.
Especially to friends, good old friends,
and ask do you need to put things in a harsh way?

joo

Future

I hope to work and achieved something in my current job. It's great to have such boss that care and share their experience with me. Certainly, I'm willing to do my utmost best for all projects. This is something that I want, recognition.

From nothing to something, from sketches to drawings... I'm planning to get myself a car, after I get my liscense. It's pretty tight and I got to plan well on the years coming. I wanted to have the convenience of travelling as well as to carry on practising driving, and not losing it after gaining the liscense. Don't worry, I'm not going to do the Initial D's drift.

I can see that I will be flying a lot more often as more is learnt for my work. I will be even more independent, (I'm already independent now) as to right now.
I started to cast away unrealistic thoughts, to brace the real world. Though, this seems like telling people there's no point dreaming, but dreaming to me, is not an unrealistic thought. I refer that to something which you KNOW you can't attain yet you carry on DOING it. Dreams might show signs of a new target for life. You don't know whether you can achieve it or not until you tried.

Music and Drawings! More of them for me next time, without music, I don't know whether I could live any longer in this world. To me music is part of my life, even though I'm not a born singer, some of the lyricist wrote songs which truely describe how ppl feel. (Forget those heavy metals...etc)

joo

WHY ?

Why sometimes it's so cold?
Why sometimes it's so quiet?
Why sometimes it's so lonely?
Why sometimes it's so complicated?
Why sometimes it's so sudden?


Why...?
joo

FOr my TWo nephews!

Wish both of you study hard, get a good result and please your parent and grandmother. Well, play hard too, but remember to prioritise your practise.
Last of all, learn from all the mistakes you have made!

And for well being, be more obedient and courteous ^___^

gorgor,
Joo

Lone Ranger

I realised that my personality had fallen into a category of lone ranger. Put in a helpless shoe, I will persevere and strive for a way out... I do more action, sometimes just to affirm my logic or assumptions, rather than doing the talking.

I take outcome more than the process. What you do doesn't matter, as long as you obtain the objective. You can choose to play safe or risk it, so long you KNOW you can accomplish it. AH... yes, this reminds us of our daily life.
Every road we take, the outcome is always been expected.

Perhaps I saw my 'outcome' when I entered University... perhaps I know what I have chosen along my life... And now as a lone ranger, I don't feel a bit regretful, or glad. It's just a path I took. Sticking to the reality, friends don't really help you at your work, but they do lend a listening ear to listen to your heart.
If competitiveness gets into friendship, things do get a bit awkward, for anything spoken will be "rebutted" back... it kind of kill off the point for gathering.

So, I was thinking of switching to another path... and maybe someday I won't stay on as a lone ranger, just with another one by my side, strolling side by side with me, on the path of eternity.

Late night work

Forecast on driving

Alright, I finally beginning to like Mr. Naggy as my driving instructor. After today's lesson, he told me that he could see that I'm learning... Yeah.. kinda like he thought I was not listening to his advice in the past. Geezer.

OK so he was right, I'm here to learn to pass the stupid freaking costly test, afterwards, I will be learning on my own.

Hah... anyway, I am fond of driving, it had make me even more wanted to get myself a car in a few years time...

From nothing to something,
joo

Things got a bit rough today

Haiz, despite solving many problems, there are still one important problem remains in my project. Can't bother to explain it out, just take note that it's no minor one. YES, and another task assigned to me.

Well today is not about work, actually I'd have gone to taiwan if not for the project in hand was confirmed for its delivery date. I was in charge of it, and I had to be around. So I cancelled and sell off my bookings for my weekends' driving lessons... and booked it back at tonight and on sunday again.

Tonight, my instructor was that guy again... but this time I showed him I can CONTROL the god damn vehicle... then he shoot stunts at me... turn into a short road (on the left lane) then told me to turn right (change lane and turn right) then there he goes again with the blah blah shet blabbing all he wants...

I checked my mirrors he said I didn't, and I didn't even bother to argue with him anymore...

Next lesson ON THE ROAD....... god damn him... for always stepping on the brake and thinking that I didn't know that.....
He's making my driving session more dangerous when I can't feel my brake...
Well as the saying goes, Driving is always subjective... different instructors have different views... what I was told was wrong to him... what he told me earlier could be overwrite by what he said recently.......what the hell.......god damn him!

For all these bad news, finally there's a good piece of news--- I met my friend ah yeh! haha! Hope he can learn driving smoothly! And all the best to him.
(seriously, he lacks self confidence in controlling the vehicle.)

Joo, unsettled.

Practicing

AH!~ An imperfect day for me today... my driving lesson in the morning spoilt my mood for today!

My instructor showed me a new route to drive around--the main road around.
All I could say is it's FIERCE at main road~~
I didn't manage to switch lane today... sad... I failed to anticipate the speed of approaching vehicle beside me from behind and missed the chance to change lane.

After which, my pick off went nuts and haywired too... everything become so... out of control?!
But I did later pick up my mistakes and learn from it...
Tomorrow is another lesson, I wish to do it well and 'zai' ... right now all I could do is to revise through in my mind.

Difficult but will be overcome by tomorrow!
joo

Another weekend

It's friday again! Yeah and I don't know how many more lonely fridays will I be coming across...

My weekends will be occupied with driving lessons and no more... until then I really wish I could meet up with someone in mind.
Alright so no plans... No games even for these five nights, and had really bored me up. I decided to stay on drawing since I had more ideas running in my mind. Yes, and inspiration is a must... I draw it from some superb music from Harlem's newest album.

So I've been wondering when was the last time that I made a gift or card for someone... haha I've turned into a lazy guy and bought my gifts for sending instead. Haiz, I always like my gifts to be different.. it came from my own hands! Not from factories! ^___^

Ok... so I will be keeping a watch over myself...to make gifts personally, if and only if, time allows.

I hope for red wine... to make myself drunk again. Sometimes I feel like I need a runaway from reality... Nope I am not in any sort of troubling thoughts... I'm just someone who enjoys personal space and freedom a lot.. no ties, no bonds,..but hopefully someone could accept me as I am.

I'm not alone, but I feel alone,
joo

Inked drawing

Here's how the pic looks like after inking...
Made some ammendments too on the pose to make it look natural.

joo

So far for me...

Ah I'm a guy who possesses a dream like most guys do, and I had great belief in the potential of my own. I like to give a try on everything but not on vices in life.
I continuously change my way of perception and thinking through my life so as to find the real meaning of my life, this one life of mine. I need to work out how far I wish to go, why do I need to strive so hard for now, and why I need friends for, and many other questions I often asked myself.

I've seen friends at the edge of breaking down, and I asked myself whether I'd become of this someday... the definite answer always came to my mind "N.O." and I believe I would not so simply as to break down over matters ---instead, I'd get even stronger, and further. I know that with my target set, I'm similar to a bull seeing a red flag, or the notorious unstoppable juggernaut.

Certainly, life is nothing but a mystery if we trace back history. I'm not going to be the GREAT one to unsolve this mystery or neither would I become of Sir Issac Newton to convince the world of its mystery such as gravity. I'm just going to be a simple fellow with unsimple thoughts. I'm greatly attracted to unexplained phenomenons or scientific phenomeons which I haven't get to know of yet.

Thus, come to my job as an engineer, I DID not choose to become of engineer, or rather I should put it in this way that engineering was bestowed to me. Don't get the wrong idea, I wasn't forced to take it either. I took it as it came. Besides scientific explanations, physics, maths and human technologies so far came a great step ahead than olden days... and an inspirative world of programming languages too, had mystified me and drive me going on.

Ah so they said about reality and dreams were too different things and some wise ones said life might turns out just to be a dream... well hard to explain unless you did watch the movie "Vanilla Sky" by Tom Cruise, everything comes clear. People see what they wanted to see, hear what they wanted to hear... so what's true might just be truth under the governing hands of the world. Since we are living beings, and had a perception capabilities I believe we should try and understand the mentalities of each other, to "empathise" others.

Right now before learning "how to save the world", I still think the fact that "how to continue living" is placed before anything. I am still pondering over what I could and should become... future, yes, that's my point! Everything in present is a moment of gold. We create our future, please watch "The Lake House" to understand what I'm talking about here. Do I lust for fame and riches or accomplishments and awards, ...or do I just need to find recognition of my existence in this lonely planet?

Before I had no more feelings for this planet..., written by
joo

The girl that I want

I would like a girl whom possess deadly glare from her eyes, that in contact I'll fly to her like a moth. And a kiss which seems to be a fatality kiss of death... Her touch would frozen everything but my heart. Her every moves is an impact to me. So much willingness for me to lay down my life for her...

Yeah! I like that!
joo =D