Troubled thoughts.

Having troubled me for about a month, I have finally given myself an answer tonight.
Well, it's about someone whom I like but she's attached.

No, I didn't like her in the first place, I found her pleasant to be with.
I'd never like to become terms like 'third party' or otherwise.
Simply, it's against my principle.

Hah, come to think of it, I reprimanded my brother long ago for not upholding his principle.
And he jokingly replied me this:" No Money means Don't Talk about Principle!"
I had a good laugh then.

His sentence resounded in my mind though. And in my mind, I'd ask myself several times what I wanted to be in the future. Someone successful and loaded? Someone investing at his interest and is happy with life? Or hopefully something between the two.

Though I've been called the iron man etc which most of my nicks relate to robotic world, I'm a man of feelings. I believe everyone wishes for a companionship, not necessary in relationships.
Someone who would really care for you, can talk with you, be trusted at all times.

Ahh, so back to the main point, (oh man I'm deviating too far out). Yes I decided to put an end to this debate in my head and going to uphold my principle. Maybe I'm just being treated as nothing if I pursued further. I don't like wishy washy feelings. I'm someone direct, and I want answers. I don't like people keeping me up with things I'd like to know, mindgames, we usually call it, sucks.

Yes so I was troubled by these thoughts in mind, and might probably contributed to my sleepless nights during the exam. I felt silly. Well, I guess sometimes, such 'events' at life makes us grow wiser.

Last but not least, I'd like to end this post with a conversation I had in NTU bnet last night:
someone in bnet as X
X: hi sword, are u local?
me: yea, im from sg
X: which hall r u from
me: hall 2 , y?
X: woot, hall 2 got lotz of chiobus
me: issit? how come i never see any
X: hah do u haf gf?
me: nope
X: wanna haf one?
me: y
X: u year one?
me: T___T no.......year 4 le
X: haha go find one lor
me: see ba...feel more free w/o one

All shortforms will not be explained as quite self explanatory.
zhaoru.