Sports for life!

Never did I have such a "hectic" day!

Morning I went for badminton session with a friend at TPY. And I did a lot of running around, my shirt ended up soaked.

Then after I got back and took a light "lunch" , I went for soccer match for my company at 245pm.

The weather was boiling hot, I wasn't prepared to run as much as I could. Fortunately, my position (def. midfield) is not fitted into the starting line up, so I got to stay at the bench for the first half.

Our team scored first, but went down 1-3 at the end of first half whistle. Disappointed look on everyone's face. I was instructed to went up for second half onward.
Our team actually did well at passing the ball, but we were mainly made up of experience players and we were against a middle aged squad. Their tactics were rather simple, pumping up long balls from behind and let their forward chase to convert a chance.
Fatigue and stamina are our enemies.

I got on to second half and stick to my role despite hearing people calling out to me to move up to attack... I thought to myself "..if I go upfront, then no one will be able to cover the defence during a counter attack, moreover, I'm defensive midfield."
I did my best to gain possession for my team. And we got two back to equalise at 3-3.

8min before the end of the game, our opponent right wing runs with the ball down our left flank, I saw that coming and our defender left was out paced, I dashed back and caught up with the winger, he braked, and I got the ball from him.

Initiating the attack, I saw my team's best uncle who caught my sight and started running forward- I knew the moment is now, I fed a through pass between him and his marker. Perfectly the ball gone to his feet, I followed upward. He worked his way to the deep goal line and I saw the route to cut back to me, I gave him a shout!

Without hesitation, he passed. I had a moment to look for goal but there were a wall of men in front... but I saw our striker at the post, with a one touch trap, I gave a fast grounder pass to him, and he scored! 4-3 ! We fought back to gain back the lead.

Leaving about 3 min, our team's strategy was to defend with concentration. And there was this Indian guy who pulled all his tricks at our defence. He attracted my attention, I kept my eyes on him.

He dribbled past my defender, I'm next. He feinted with his body to my left, and dashed towards my right, my last second response was to foul him. I did, he was furious. I didn't care.
It's all what soccer was all about.

He was keen to avenge on that. As soon as I got a chance to break off an attack for my team from a corner, he charged at me with his foot. There was another marker on me beside, I stretched my feet to tap the ball down and bounced under his legs and tried to avoid impact from him.

He collided with his teammates, but kicked my left foot, nearly tripped me, I regained my balance and dashed for the ball... but referee awarded me a freekick. I wasn't really happy with the decision, play on would be an advantage to us in this counter attack.
Well, he didn't get his revenge, I got the final laugh as the game ended.

I'm glad our team won. And I was of help.
zhaoru.

PS: my legs have less cramps nowadays after working out in the gym. ^___^V

Satisfaction!

Hehe, after such long time of practising and training, my table tennis "senses" are back!
I will say about 95% is back. I can now played a better game against my engineer, and most importantly my deadly service is back in action ^__^V

As for my badminton, I had improved a lot better since I had started. My smack, service and baseline shots, as well as drop shots are doing well. Hopefully my backhand can still become stronger. I look forward to be a fight for my engineer.

Cheers,
zhaoru.

Staying positive

I used to be someone who cannot stand the feeling of losing, when I play I MUST win.
When I lost, I will feel down, bad or even angry, it just seem so ... unecessary now.

I think I had now become more positive thinking. Losing to me means something to pick up and rectify after a game. I won't feel disappointed as in the past now, I can walk off telling myself that when we meet our opponents again, I shall win.

Nothing is definite. With hard work and training, we can overcome the greatest odds. We just need to find the will to do so.
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It seems that even sometimes I get to feel a bit boring of myself whenever I started to see how my life is spent and still spending. But sometime it just take a little word to lighten me up.
For instance, my IA counterpart told me that she trusted me so she told me some of her matters.

I feel that I have no really good points except I can be true to my friends. I won't keep my unhappiness about them to myself, I always like to find time, and have a good chat or conversation with them. I believe we are learning to live, and we always need to know ourselves better in order to live "better".

Though this might have cause some unhappiness too, I tried my best to put them in the most non-offensive tone when spilling it out. Hopefully we learn to know better of ourselves and each other. And this way, I feel happier also, in a way I had told off what I wanted to say.

Afterall, I'm the one who is kept in the dark from all of u.
zhaoru.

My world turn opposite today

It was 11pm. There I was, staring at my monitor screen waiting for the 4th formatting to be completed. Before I knew it, I was sound asleep at my bed.

Dreams and many images flashed across my mind. Suddenly, a picture of the screen showing that the formatting was done occured in me. I woke up eyes awide. Only to find that the computer was shut down. It was 3am.

I turned on my PC. Gladly I thought to myself, yes, I'm not going to let any virus to attack my computer again. So I went through the trouble again to reinstall all the softwares and programs.
The last thing I did was to set up my internet connection.
I got it done, updated my norton anti virus data bank as well as windows updates... and a virus hit me. Unable to repair it, it was quarantined.

I was too tired to think of reformatting it again. I decided to leave it as it is. So I got back to bed in hope to catch a few moment of rest before I got to wake up for work. It was 5am.

Ringggggg~~~ *piak* ( stopped my alarm clock) I caught a glimpse of my clock showing that it was 545am in the dark. "15more minutes and I will wake up in no time!" thought me to myself.
In a concussed state, I heard my dad calling me up, telling me that it was now 6am. I heard myself telling my dad, "yar ok" and sat up on my bed. Only to have my head fell back on my pillow again.

Images of my daily routine to wake up for work alarmed me in my head. As I watched my clock, it read 615am. Suddenly, my Nth sense told me that it couldn't be that early... because Sunlight had already invaded the room! I realised I mis-read the seconds-hand as the minutes-hands which fell at 3o'clock position when I first opened my eyes to check. It was... 640am!

Now everything seems too fast for me. I took a showered, brushed my teeth, packed my bag, combed my hair, wear my clothes and shoes, and stepped out of home by 655am.

When I got down I saw my bus coming, I was too late for it. Fortunately, the traffic junction stopped it as red turned green for me to cross the road. I rushed to the Next Bus Stop, and was in time to wave and board the bus.

While on the bus, I remembered shutting my eyes. Once I woke up again, the bus just came to a stop at the bus interchange at woodland.

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Today's work: 90% sleeping.
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zhaoru.

Trust.

When we talked about trust, it means believing someone.

We may not know the truth, but we still believe in the person -- trust.
We may have known the truth, yet we still chose to believe in the person -- trust.

Since believing someone is not easy, to put your trust on someone would mean he/she had something which is worth to believe in.
Trust had come mainly in the verbal form, and action is what we wanted to see or get in return.

What do we judge to trust? His/Her abilities, capabilities, reliability and perhaps love.

From the 4 general attributes listed, among them, love seems to be out of place.
It is something invisible, with no past records, yet its presence is commanding and could instill courage to fulfill something--- to trust.

Trust is almost as transparent as love, therefore, most people believe that love builds from trust. I think what we failed to understand is that trust is also built from love. It is supposed to be a virtue spiral that goes on and forge stronger bonds.

And maybe this is a reason why our previous generation can have love sustained over a lifetime, even though their marriage was pre-arranged by their parent.
Maybe that's why our future generations seems more and more ignorant of love.

Love of theirs had become more of selfishness than mutual compromisation.

Trust had to come first, yet till today, it is still hard to trust anyone.
And it's fortunate to see friends around us, that is trust-worthy.
Hopefully the trust we bear comes from both sides, that is, we trust each other.

Trustingly yours,
zhaoru.

What the hell... ...

I've went to watch the japanese movie " infection" last night. After the 1h45min show, all I could say was that it is certainly not worth $8.50... wait! Nor is it worth $6.50... or even worth 50 cents!!!

That's the value-for-money of the show I will give. The japanese took about 1hour to build up the story and work towards a "climax", with some loud eerie soundtracks being played a few times, the show is full of conversation between the doctors and the nurses, discussing where to put the patients into their 6ward room hospital...

The fact is, there has never been a climax in the show. I was even thinking and expecting for some sort of "horror" scenes to come, but none appeared. Took 1h to build the atmosphere that seem bound to reach the climax, but then died off...... on and off.... yet nothing, yes, NOTHING scary happened.

As most of the show-time, the doctors and the nurses were discussing, scolding at their colleagues, mainly conversations--- there is nothing else except cold LAME jokes (never tickled me off).

I don't think it is worth for me to even narrate out for my readers.
I shan't waste my time for it also.
A word of caution: Don't even think of giving it (the show) a chance, the trailer is the "scariest" part of the show. No more.

A fool that spent $8.50 on a not-worth-money show,
zhaoru.

Jack of all Trades, Master of none.

It takes courage to start learning skills. Skills are also a form of knowledge.
Each of us have our own capabilities and limits.
Since I can't really attained perfection, I think it would be nice to know more and try to master the skills.

Be it on anything, sports, culinary, problem solving, etc.
As long as I still have the breath and the courage to seek to learn the skills, as long as there are still challenges at things I do, I will do it!
Just like knowledge is like the very ocean content of the Earth, we just can't cover each and every inches of it. Skills too takes time to learn, to master, but always hard to perfect.

Sometimes I think of why perfection is never reached, I guess perfection always comes from the perception of other parties, that's why it is never going to be compromised. But if it is to come from our own perspective of perfection, will we give ourselves the title of perfection?

I will, if I know I had done my best and reached my limit. It's perfect.

Searching for the perfect world to live in,
zhaoru.

Comment from a female engineer.

"Aiya, everyday work and work, very stressful one, finally it's friday, so I got to do my retail- theraphy~"

joo understanding: Retail-theraphy, to buy things in order to relieve stress such as working stress. To improve effectiveness of this theraphy, it is better to have a higher salary!

"hehe... Work so hard to earn money, must spend mah~. I saw what I wanted to get le actually, so later call my husband to pay for them."

~___~ joo understanding: She had attained the highest level of the effectiveness of the retail-theraphy-- she don't even need to pay!

Still don't understand how it relief stress,
zhaoru.

Quarter working, Three quarter slacking!

Entering the third "phase" of my industrial attachment, I found work is a breeze -- if I can stop pressing myself to find things to do.

Yep, so as to say, I'm slacking for the last two weeks. I didn't seek out to do something for log book recording, frankly, I'm sick of it! And doing something just for the sake of doing it is very boring. I need to find more motivation and meaningful purpose to get myself moving again.

So meantime, I am investing my time at munching biscuits, listening music and singing softly to myself in the office, going to Net if I could or chatting ^___^

Today, I brought along my digital camera and took photos with my engineers and PTO together.
Hah, maybe I'm beginning to think ahead of missing them in the future.
Ironically, if ask to go back and work at Senoko Power Station, my answer would probably be a "no". Maybe I will seek for other companies first before it.

Yar! Talking about work, today I just made up a content page to link the excel files which I had done so far together. Hmmm... and my supervisor was wondering whether what I had done were going to be useful. After busy explaining to him how it might have been useful, he started to wonder whether my work would have been correct or not! ( Wah!! buay Lun liao~ )

And I felt guilty today for slacking too much, while my other IA counterpart was "suffering", thus I decided to find myself something to begin doing again.
And yes, once again I convinced my supervisor that the drawing I'm going to come up with is going to add on to my knowledge as well as a refresher course for my supervisor.

Doesn't seem too much of a problem, isn't it?
Well, I'm still stucked at writing for my final report , damn!
I hope someone shines a light to me, and everything is done beforehand.

That would be nice,
zhaoru.

Recently

Hmmm, I just realised I had bought quite a few album since last month:

1) Twins, 見習愛神 4/10
2) 李圣杰, 手放開 7/10
3) Hitomi Shimatani, Crossover 10/10
4) F.I.R, 無限 4/13
5) Hitomi Shimatani, Delicious 10/15
6) 建面李, 超級精選集 25/32

Note that the numbers indicate the number of tracks I like in each album.

Music + Life = zhaoru.

Guardian of Peace; CASSHERN

I took a walk at Sembawang Music store today, and bought a vcd of a japanese movie:CASSHERN.


The show ended delivering a message saying "I want to run away... from the pain.....forget everything (history scenes were showed) ... start all over again.........I know.....Let's end the hatred here... I didn't want to cause more pain....but it came to this(sufferings)..........At last I understand........we hurt others by our very existence.....that's just the way we live...........We need to learn to forgive....Need to realise that existence is to be shared.........Those who presume to judge are mistaken..... We're not just here to exist; but to find the strength to co-exist........ It may start from something small, it may even seem impossible...But we must start from somewhere.....We can do it....It's not so hard if we try....Hope.......our legacy.

In perspective of seeking peace, I would have agree the importance that the world learn how to co-exist together in order to continue the peace we have today. Peace had always been said that it came with a price, and hopefully, we will never had to pay again.

However, if we look at the recent issues regarding the censoring of history informations on japan education system, this show somehow sounded in support of it " forget everything(the history) ....start all over again(censored education).........we must learn to forgive(FORGIVE what they had done in WWII) ...........we can do it( i think they meant brainwashing)......... hope....our legacy( for their future generation who don't know about the past deeds the Jap had commited)

Well, maybe all these come in coincidence. I don't mean to start a boycott to this film ^__^.
Afterall, it was a very good film, filled with actions, special effects, good story plot, love, hate, remorse, suffering, selfishness, and forgiveness.

Watch it if you have the chance, otherwise can always borrow from me^__^V
zhaoru.

PS: All I want to say is that, this is one great show and I believe it is. Forget the rubbish I wrote, just a thought.

Oops at badminton!

Last Wednesday, while playing/training badminton, I rushed over towards the net to receive a drop shot from the opponent near the side line...

As I reached out for the shuttle cock, I lost my balance, soon I found the momentum took over my whole body... I was flung out towards the wall and BANG!!!

I remembered at the moment before impact I hardened myself for the collision, and today, we saw the cracks and dent on the partitioned-wall.

Moral of the story: Whenever someone accidentally knocked against something, ask if the thing is damaged first. ^^

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Today session, an alike situation took place, except I do it with a different stunt.
Once AGAIN, I was trying to reach to save a drop shot near the net. Rushing forth, my right feet caught my left, yep and I fell, skidded under the net with rolling somersaut.
When I was back on my feet, I was on the other side of the court.

Moral: Guys don't try playing badminton without top, sweat cause you to skid when u fell. WEAR your TOP!!!!

badminton ah siao,
zhaoru.

Ah! today...

I went gym today. Met the usual patrons there, they are Wong, Tay, Ng and Firdaus. (All from my work place)

After my first round or work out, I joined Firdaus at playing X-Box: Winning Eleven8.
Hehe, though the controller is a bit different from PS2, I soon got hold of my control, and won each game quite one-sidedly hehe ^__^V
Then Tay being a total stranger to Winning Eleven8 wanted to play, so I played with him and realised that he don't actually know how to play it, thus, I won 5-0 with ease.

So he challenged me at the game of FIFA instead, well, I'm not a fan of FIFA series but I did play a few times but soon get tired of it and feel it wasn't "skill" enough for players to show their control. Upon hearing that I wasn't good at FIFA (because the control buttons' function is opposite to Winning Eleven) Tay gladly called upon a game of 2v2 players.

Guess what! My team WON 3 games straight hehehe, think that left them silenced.

After I done my second round of work out, I decided to go home, however, it just began to rain heavily. So I asked for a hitch to a nearest MRT station, hopefully it is Woodlands.

It turned out that Ng lives at AMK, so we headed there with Wong. On the way, they persuaded me to go to a coffee shop which they went regularly to drink "Ang Mo Tea" (beer)
I decided to go with them and maybe take my dinner there.

Then, they poured me a glass of beer and we started to drink...

I had a bowl of minced meat noodle before drinking, thinking that I wouldn't be drinking on an empty stomach and so my face won't turn red too fast.
Well, my face turn red after finishing 3 glasses of beer. Soon enough I was able to feel the "heat" on my face. But I was certainly sure I still retained my consciousness.

We chatted till around 1115 before we left. Actually I already felt the alcohol effect at slowing my reaction and feeling heavy-headed. I didn't dare to sleep or doze off at bus, afraiding of missing my bus stop to home.

I remembered asking Ng why they drank beer, it's bitter, can cause you to puke, expensive etc...
And I still do not know the answer, nevertheless, we just drank. Maybe that's their answer.
Zhaoru.

Some updates...

Well, it seems that I have got myself a counter here at my blog site. Wonder when it will hit its first 100 ^___^

Anyway, I got a player too hoping to play some of my favourite pop songs but I don't seem able to play it, I wonder if I should set up a server... ~_____~

Anyone with some EASY solutions for me? Hope I'm able to understand and follow the instructions.

Thanks a lot lor,
zhaoru.

Good Luck People!

Well 3 months had passed, and there left another 3or less months for my Industrial Attachment. But more importantly, this is yet another time for exams for those who are still studying at 1st year (my brother), 2nd year (my cousin, Huiru), 4th year(my friend Jun-san and Swee Jin), and yes not to forget someone else going for NS service (my cousin, Zhaoyan) !

Yep, hereby wish them good luck and all the best for exams!
Zhaoru.

Disappointed

Sometimes, I just don't like the way people speak. I don't know exactly why, but sometimes I feel that the tone is "not right", well call me being sensitive to such small issue... but I do care about the way people talk to me in a conversation or even talk to me about someone else.

Especially, trying to crack a joke that is "suan-ing" people, it sucks when it goes overboard.
Alright, now you can call me being unable to take a joke or so... well, I won't complain but usually that is the point you last see the smile on my face.

Why can't people understand how the way they talk can actually get misinterpreted sometimes?
I feel that once we know the people around us, we should try to make them comfortable in a conversation. This is not hypocritism. It is a kind of socialising skill.

This happens a few times for me, and I'm rather disappointed.
Why didn't I just spill it to them? I don't need people to live around me.
The last thing I want to show is that I can be definitely 100% independent.

zhaoru.

Life

Sometimes I just feel like life is like a jogging journey... the more distance we jogged through, we began to feel more fatigue and tiredness set in.

However, with perserverance, we can continue regulate our breathing, take each step forward with a rhythm at mind... and listen to our own breathing in and out...

Along the way, stitch may discourage you from your embarkment on this journey, but with the last of all determination, your hand at ur waist, keep pushing on and continue your momentum...

While we overcome all obstacles, suddenly we began to let our minds wonder... where is the end point? How far am I away from it?

This is the point which separates the strong from the weak minded... some see it as a mark to the end, and gave the last burst of their energy for the journey... some fades away from the light of the tunnel, and slowly lost their will...

If this is life, how fast should we finish this journey? Or is it what we bear through are our best moments we will have in our life?

still on my way,
zhaoru.