Perfectionism

Some actions of my past often refered me as a perfectionist.
I would put it in a diffiferent way that I had a strong will to win -- in anything.

I have sought to do things at my best and even to perfection!
Until now, I will humbly say that none of which had been perfected.

However, all of which I would like to perfect had one thing in common, my Interests.

I guess all things in life that we indulged in and do, begin with our interest.
And striving for perfection made a person stronger at will, more zest and certainly a bit more ego.

Thus I joked a lot with anti-egoistic phrase such as "MCP" male chauvinist pig, instead of keeping my least bit of ego at its minimum, I exagerated it and made myself a fool out of it.
It sounds ironic isn't it? If a person has too much ego of himself, he wouldn't have spoilt the image of his that stupidly.

Well, I think that it placed a perfect constraint on the growth of my ego. =p

Perfection has its bad side too. Being first one of the perfectionist wannabe, I wondered sometimes why people detested perfectionist. It always seems to me that striving to perfect something is something perfectly natural.

But now, after dropping the idea of perfectionism, I sometimes can be quite annoyed or irritated by people embracing perfectonism. It is something like we debate over I.Q or E.Q is more important.

I think we can easily differentiate people with a mindsets of perfection from the way they speak and do, what they intend to achieve.
AND of those I got irritated by, were those who speak with an arrogant tone, or more often of not, leaving me an impression of being hyprocritic.
I'm not really sure that I have branded these 'crooks' as bad perfectionists is right or not, least it appealed to me in that way.

I hope that people can changed for the better, not for the worse.
Zhaoru.